This is a totally random post about whatever comes to my head. I've been busy over the last few days...weeks even! I'm going home for christmas!! YAY!!! However, as yay as it is, i have to miss some school, meaning iv got to do lots so that im ok by the time i'm leaving. I'v got exams to reschedule, assignments to hand in early, etc, etc! So thats what i've been doing. I actually like being a student. I like the carefree, i dont have to worry bout anyone but me feeling. I go home when i want to, eat when i want to, sleep when i want to. I'm finally over that preliminary home-sickness that you get when you first leave home. See I have never been to bording school, never lived away from home for more than a month. So when I left home last year to go to uni, it was all a bit of a shock and i would cry almost every day for the first like two weeks. I don't do that anymore. I was talking to kanja and he was saying how I don't talk as much, but he knows its because I have become more independent. Its true. I've learnt to just get on. Things don't get to me as much. There are always hurdles to jump, these days I just jump them. Thats just what I have to do. Even if i complain or get upset about it, i still have to jump them...not to say that I don't complain...oh I do! I can throw a mean tantrum if I want to....what would life be without tantrums? I guess I'm growing up....funny, I just put "tantrum" and "growing up" together....a complex type of simplicity. Someone said something in passing the other day..."life is crap, but its just too short"...its so true. This thing called life just relentlessly throws things at you, but then its like its too short to do all the things you want to do. I want to travel, I want to do so many things, I want to experience as many new things as I can. I wonder if I will. I'll definately give it a shot, but I bet I won't do everything I dream about. But at least I have my dreams. They keep me going. People say I've changed. I don't feel like I have. I don't feel any different. But maybe I have. How can I not. I'm changing, I'm evolving, I'm finding myself, I'm growing into me. I've always had uniform to wear to school, parents telling me what time my curfew is, food that I just found at the table, everything was done. Now I do it all by myself. It's a great experience, I sometimes don't like some of the things about me, I never knew before that I could ever act a certain way, but i do and thats just how it is!