SMOKEY!!!!!!

Do you ever wonder what all "this" is for? Why do we bother...? It kinda feels like my life doesnt belong to me all of a sudden. Its not mine, I feel removed from me and I'm going on just with what i have to do...like a robot! Somebody asked me to think about what the world would be if I wasnt in it....good question...I have to make my presence here known. I have to live this life that was given to me and make sure that it is known that I lived! Then somebody else told me how their life was changing and they were seeing things in a different light...life is way shorter than we think. So burn the nice candles that you think are too pretty to burn, use that perfume you save for special days, wear make up on a normal day...just because you can! When I was small, I had a box of these really cool crayons, they had glitter, crayon holders that were squidgy so it was nice to hold, they smelt lush and there were all the colors you could ever imagine! They were too special to use. So I saved them. I put them in a special place and saved them. Now if you ask me what exactly I was saving them for? I would not be able to answer you. Its not like there was a contract I was waiting for to do a piece that was going to be put in the Louvre, no, but i was saving them for something special....I never did use my crayons...dont know where they are today. Grew out of the excitement of them...but i should have used them then. Used them to write birthday cards for my parents and friends, draw pictures of butterflies for my walls, something, anything!!! So I figure, from now on, I'm going to do something smokey inspired and LIVE!!