...this...

How many times of falling will it take me to learn? Why can't I just stop? What is this streak of weakness in me that leaves me feeling like I need, need need someone else to put a smile on my face? I can do that all by myself and even spread that smile. So why do I constantly seek this sense of belonging from others, of wanting to be someone's. Can't I just drop all this, like when you cut off your hair. That feeling of it falling off...I want that.