Again the chair invades my life!! Last year I was told that I may have P.C.O.S...polycystic ovary syndrome...yes i know, i was like...what the ...? Its not as bad as it sounds really. And seeing that I was diagnosed early, it's easier to control, but I am at risk of getting diabetes, I should watch my weight, etc etc, the usual hormonal problem things to watch! Anyway, this year I had to go for more tests and go see the doctor again today...not my idea of a way to start the day...shower, dress, get funny cold instruments stuck in you. Today it was confirmed that I do have P.C.O.S Anyway, to cut a long story short, after lots of discussion and me asking millions of questions, I get put on the pill...! I'm still not sure about how I feel about that. I don't know if I'll remember to take the darn things almost everyday of my life! But I will have to...Oh to be a woman!!

ring ring...

kipepeo's baby

meet my phone! It's black, it flips and I can do cool things with it....play my favorite game - canal control, change the colour settings when i'm bored, and lots of other cool things too. But, I am afraid I am getting to emotionally attached to it. It goes everywhere with me. If it was water resistant, i'd go into the shower with it. Yes people, I have become a slave to my phone! I have agreed with all my alter ego's that I will try and go into detox in a bid to slowly disentangle myself from my phone! Last week I left it at home one evening when i was out seeing friends, as hard as it was at first, complete with withdrawal symptoms (read shaking, sweating and cold hands) it was quite liberating. I can actually see myself doing that again! So here's to my phone detox!

Try this....while you're sitting down, rotate your leg clockwise and at the same time draw a figure six in the air with your right hand....I cannot do it...can you? You are a hero if you can...good luck

What a mad crazy fun weekend!!! Went to a different town like 2 hours away for some gig! I havn't had nearly as much fun in a long while!! But repurcussions, I almost fell asleep walking to school today!! Anyway, such is the life of the young!

Now I live in a tiny village...it can't get any tinier than this place!! So amongst the clubs in this place, there is only one that is worth going to. The rest, well, lets not talk about the rest. So a friend came up from the big city helsinki this weekend...I tell you I now know what it feels like for people in shags when someone from nairobi goes there!! Anyway, so she came up, and with all the syke, we cheated ourselves into going out on both nights....yes to the same club!! its called the insanity of youth!!! Anyway, so the first night, we drank at home and went out. So at the door after paying for our jackets, we turn around to pay our 5euros (which by the way is a total rip off) for entrance into the club...well surprise surprise....some random dude who was ahead of us had paid for all three of us!!! Lucky night, how many times does that happen...best of all, we didnt even see him again, so he wasn't doing it to get lucky or anything. So we go in, all wow'd by our free entrance, music sucks, but hey, we got in free, so its ok, it doesnt feel too much of a rip off. Then these two guys come over to our table which had nothing but the big glass of ice water we were all sharing due to lack of syke even to drink...yes it was that boring!!! Turns out they are both cops. Not just cops, but Finnish C.S.I's....how cool is that....but like any other male, they were out to get some ass for the night, once that was established, we left. Next night we went back, luckily it wasn't as bad as the last night. This time some random dude, kept buying us drinks...like he even gave my friend his visa card, like what? If she was the wrong person, his account would have nothing at the moment, so she just put it back into his wallet and gave it back to him...things alcohol does, anyway, we were nicely intoxicated to actually enjoy the night and the music. Not like I remember what sort of music was played!!! Oh the joy of being young. This weekend.... another party! yaaaay!!!

This my dear bloggers is the town I live in! Yes it is all snow...it was pretty and interesting in the beginning, now I just want it to go away!!

In the spirit of valentines day, a friend of mine wrote this (you know who you are...)....it's a different aspect in an interesting way...

"love exists in this world and we are taught to love each other including our enemies. But to then misinterpret this gift and lie that love should be what sustains a relationship of two people is unfounded. The love that led to marriage is a thing of the past. Its more realistic to be in tolerance than to be in the so-called love.Tolerance is the new ways of doing things and it works. People are together simply because they tolerate each other.period!!"

Happy valentines day all you special people!!! kipepeo kisses!!

chill pill anyone?

This is what my life feels like...a bowl of spaghetti! Everything is all mixed up on a plate that's very nicely presented complete with garnishing!

The last few months I've been the angriest person I've known myself to be. Nothing works right and I hate everything.
I'm sick of school, I'm sick of all the assignments, I really really hate accounting, I'm sick of it being cold all the time, I'm sick of the snow, I'm sick of living in a small town, I'm sick of being upset, I'm sick of fighting, I'm sick of talking, sick of being nice, sick of smiling, most of all, I'm sick of being sick of everything.
I was walking home from school at like 6:30 the other day, listening to my music like I always do, and the next thing, I was crying. In the dark, walking alone, crying by myself....how weird is that? Actually the last two weeks I've been doing alot of that...crying...not really wailing or anything so out there, but I could just be sitting in my room and suddenly I feel my eyes get all moist. I don't know what's going on with me, but I don't like it. Saturday night, rather, early sunday morning, I had a shouting match with someone...well someone who is/are...a friend...oh I don't know anymore. I just needed to let it out. Let them know my take on things. It felt better after that, I slept well, but the next day I wondered if I should have. Should I have just let things fizzle out? good question. I just feel sooooo frustrated. Like I'm in a straight jacket and I don't know how to get free, but I'm being bombarded with all sorts of things. I don't know where all this rage has come from, I just need to chill. And here you were probably thinking that this was going to be a nice post about food or something yummy! ha!

king without a crown

just heard this song on mtv...i kinda like it...

King Without A Crown

Chorus:
What's this feeling?
My love will rip a hole in the ceiling
Givin' myself to you from the essence of my being
Sing to my G-d all these songs of love and healing
Want Moshiach now so it's time we start revealing

You're all that I have and you're all that I need
Each and every day I pray to get to know you please
I want to be close to you, yes I'm so hungry
You're like water for my soul when it gets thirsty
Without you there's no me
You're the air that I breathe
Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet
Won't be brought down on one knee
Fight with all of my might and get these demons to flee
Hashem's rays fire blaze burn bright and I believe
Out of darkness comes light, twilight unto the heights
Crown Heights burnin' up all through till midnight
Said, thank you to my G-d, now I finally got it right
And I'll fight with all of my heart, and all a' my soul, and all a' my might

Chorus

Bridge:

Me no want no sinsemilla.
That would only bring me down
Burn away my brain no way my brain is to compound
Torah food for my brain let it rain till I drown
Thunder!
Let the blessings come down

Strip away the layers and reveal your soul
Got to give yourself up and then you become whole
You're a slave to yourself and you don't even know
You want to live the fast life but your brain moves slow
If you're trying to stay high then you're bound to stay low
You want G-d but you can't deflate your ego
If you're already there then there's nowhere to go
If you're cup's already full then its bound to overflow
If you're drowning in the water's and you can't stay afloat
Ask Hashem for mercy and he'll throw you a rope
You're looking for help from G-d you say he couldn't be found
Looking up to the sky and searchin' beneath the ground
Like a King without his Crown
Yes, you keep fallin' down
You really want to live but can't get rid of your frown
Tried to reach unto the heights and wound bound down on the ground
Given up your pride and the you heard a sound
Out of night comes day and out of day comes light
Nullified to the One like sunlight in a ray,
Makin' room for his love and a fire gone blaze

Chorus

Reelin' him in
Where ya been
Where ya been
Where ya been for so long
It's hard to stay strong been livin' in galus (exile) for 2000 years strong
Where ya been for so long
Been livin in this exhile for too long

I need some luck, I'm crossing all my fingers, toes, just about anything that can be crossed! I NEED a summer job, like really really NEED one!!! There's this really great job in the uk. It's nothing lush, but I will get to travel through england and they give me accomodation and transport! I sent in my application, they said the next step is to go for a face to face interview. But I have to weigh if it is worth going all the way just for an interview and back again... so I'm thinking of asking them if I could have an interview via telephone...It's what I really really need for summer! So cross all your fingers that it all works out....

prince lyrics - reflection

.

2 sevens together
Like time, indefinite
Trying 2 catch the glass
b4 it falls
Without a frown
Can U turn up the stereo?
Eye wanna play U this old song about love (is it about love?)
Can Eye do that?

Did we remember 2 water the plants today?
Eye 4got 2 look up at the moon because
Eye was 2 busy, said Eye was 2 busy
Eye was 2 busy
Looking at you babe

Still it's nice 2 know
That, uh when bodies wear out
We can get another
What does that 1 thing have 2 do with the other 1?
Eye don't know
Eye was just thinking about my mother

U know what
Turn the stereo back down
Ain't nothing worse than an old worn out love song
Tell me do you like my hair this way
Remember all the way back in the day
When we would compare who's afro was the roundest

Mirrored tiles above the bed
Fishing nets and posters all over the wall
Oh yes, sometimes
Sometimes Eye just wanna go sit out on the stool
And uh... play my guitar
Just watch all... all the cars go by...

love

I need....

flutter thank you's for keguro

thanks keguro...it works....yay!!! have a day full of flutters

I changed my template...just for a fresh of breath air....i mean, a breath of fresh air!! But my pictures still will not upload...help anyone???

Just had a lesson in the course developing business towards learning....BOOOOORING BORING course, but today I learnt something new. Its not the strongest nor the most intelligent who survive, its those most adaptable to change. That is so true. Life hits us all with unexpected events, the only way to get over them is to take them in your stide and move on, change, adapt, be flexible, grow. It's a lesson I learnt this year as early as we are into the year and I'm grateful that I did. So I have decided, I seem to be on the war path these days, so I want to take a two week time out break, find myself and I should be ok and renewed after that.

of ants and intoxication

The ant always falls over on its right side when intoxicated.

ok, i just read that in a forward and wondered who on earth would figure that out? That is the randomest thing ever!!!