waa waa! blogger is crazy. I had one post which i decided to split into two seeing as they were different enough to have as two posts, so when I went back to edit it, one of them dissappears!! Brilliant!! Absolutely brilliant!! They must be working in collaboration with my government....basic trend of stealing everything and anything from the public including posts!!!! I cannot find it and I'm tired of typing!!

hm!

Economics exam - done
Dreaded visit to the gyno - done
kipepeo getting gradually better - done

And thus, my weekend begins! Yes, my weekend. Me, poor jobless Kenyan student who's government could not care less if she fell off the face of the earth. They can't even go phew, one less person to take care of....BECAUSE THEY NEVER HAVE!!!! Dang! I didn't even get that free Moi milk or whatever, never had any government doctor do anything for me, I have a sneaky feeling I shall not be receiving any pension in my lifetime from them. Yet, they go ahead and do this!!! How can they possibly arm-twist the government of a Nation that is faced with drought, looking to get donor funding and aid, all sorts of evils and then they go and do that? Have they no soul? A little dignity anyone? Its crazy!! I don't even know what to think of them. kritik
puts it best when he says... thieves!! thieves!!! thieves!!!! wezi hawa!! bure kabisa, pumbavu!! mavi ya kuku!!! hawa wezi!!! shindwe pepo mbaya!!!

Aaaaahh!! I could punch someone! Honestly, they are the most vile creatures walking the face of this earth!!

They are crazy!! No, scratch that, crazy is a major understatement!! Where the hell did they come from and what do they think with? Their toes??? I am so livid, I could do the crazy dance...rip off clothes, do back flips, scream and froth at the mouth!!

"I was very much imprest when i read your profile, and i hereby request from you for any kind of relationship. and please am very sorry for any inconvience this message may cause. "

I got this on my hi5 messages! Recently I've been getting a collection of strange messages to my hi5. But this one takes the cake!! Firsty, spelling..."imprest"???? What is that? then the rest is toooo hillarious!!! humans are strange characters! lol

kikoi weekend!

I love my culture, I love my people and one place to experience the two is at the maasai market...whichever one you may choose to go to. Be it at the village market, the good old tuesday market in town, these days they are all over the place. I'm proud to say that Kenyans are getting ever so creative and every time I go back home, I marvel at the new designs they come up with. Chic meets africa! And I just love it!!! The colours, the textures, everything is amazing. My all time favorite is the kikoi. You can do so many things with it. It's great as a scarf, headwrap (still looking for someone to tell me how to wrap one!!), as a body wrap. It's just an excellent piece of art to have. Men wrapped in a kikoi is sex on legs!! Everytime I wear my kikoi, I feel a little bit closer to home! The vibrant colours never cease to leave me in awe. So if you have one, this weekend is kikoi weekend...(so say I)!! Joing me and wear your kikoi in whichever way you please!! Bring them out!!!!

I feel horrible. I didn't go to school today. My chest feels like its up in flames, every time I take a breath, it hurts. I went to the chemist to get something to make me feel better. I miss Nairobi where they would find something. Here they said they didn't know what to give me, so I should go to the doctor. I've got a gyno check up tomorrow, so she will have to prescribe something for me after she's done looking up my legs. For the first time ever, I was freezing in bed last night. You don't understand. I've got a thermal duvet which is usually the death of me because it is sooooooo hot under that thing. I'm constantly fighting with the darn thing. Last night, I actually had to put on a pair of socks. Shock!!! I've got an economics exam on thursday, a presentation tomorrow....gee!! I shall be one happy bunny once this week is done.

catch me if you can....and its gone!!!!

just to tease you all.... kipepeo went 80's on Saturday night. This is her and two of her friends...80's night was great!! Wild wild hair, crazy clothes...it was fun!! I'll take this down in a bit, so catch me if you can!

If you snooze, you loose!!! It's gone!! hehe

congratulations are in order!

Conrgratulations....mental, MJY, guess, miss k, thinker, milo, kenyan pundit, mawazo, mshairi, msanii, nickyboo and jikomboe....great job all you wonderful gorgeous, lush bloggers!!!

malaika...????!!!

A friend of mine found the lyrics to "malaika" here and they are hillariously wrong!!! How did they manage to do this??? My favorite line is.... "nassin dwala mali sinawy"...made my day!!

Ok, so I am on a mission to look for the song in the sex scene of the Thomas Crown affair...I love it....Just havn't had the time...nor remembered to google it...yeah, bet you're thinking..."yeah and you have the time to blog about it...??" Yes I am weird like that! But I really really love it. Ever had one of those phone calls, where you really question why that person picked up the phone, scrolled to your name and dialled? Purpose of it was.....???? Sometimes I just don't understand the human race.

Talking bout humans....I am really glad that Caroline Elkins won the pulitzer prize for her book. I havn't read it....probably because I can't get a copy let alone one in English in this back water village that I live in, but it is on the top of my reading list for summer. I have however heard lots of good reviews about it and what it talks about is one of my passions and interests. So big up to her (Caroline Elkins).

Thought of the day courtesy of Forbes...
"He who will not economize will have to agonize."
-Confucius

Have a good day won't you!! oh and remember to smile!!

As much as I love my phone and the people it brings me closer to....I am seriously contemplating throwing the blasted thing out the flipping window as a result of pressure from people applied through this stupid little thing that beeps every two seconds with people demanding me to do stuff, react to stuff, reply to stuff, ask if i shall go do stuff! AAAAAAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!

Ponies and rainbows anybody?

random random random....edit!!

I just wrote this looooooooooong raaaaaaaandom winding post on nothing in particular. I looked at it and decided not to post it, I may seem a tad bit.....looney!! Being reminded by people who I should be, got me thinking about who I am. People, even I think I'm a tad bit crazy, but don't i have to be to get by?? When I started this blog, I was easy like sunday morning, nobody knew about it, I didn't know all these other kenyan bloggers, so who cares what they think right? then as time went on, people got wind of it, by default it slipped out of me...its so hard to keep a secret these days!! Anyway, now some people in my real world know about my blog. For a while I'd think twice before I posted stuff, but then, what the heck. This is my space and I will say what i want, when I want. Tough on anyone else...they can get their own space...its free!! I don't use this to slander anyone, or anything like that, I just say what I feel like, when I feel like! Its great. I don't explain anything to anyone and thats the greatest thing about blogging for me...its a release!! Hmm although lateley I have been fresh out of inspiration!! Even though there is soooo much to write about, like:

- nepalese porters who are known to be the best porters in the world (they can carry their own weight on their backs and go galavanting across Nepal)
-The goings ons in Chad
-Italian elections and Berlusconi's ability to make me laugh my socks off by some of the things he says
-my ability to do cool stunts with my tongue...(get your minds out of the gutter!! not that way)
-my need to rediscover my big 'O'!!!
-hi5 and weird forums...(kenchic...for people who like kenchic!!???)
-my love for India and its culture despite me never setting foot on indian soil...YET!!!
-my love for raidiators in class....greatest thing since sliced bread!!
-the question of my room!! Why is it never ever tidy enough?? Can't it just remain neat??? Why do I always have to follow up on it?!!!
-my new ganga-sta word ''yo!''

So as you can see (the list is way longer, just didn't feel like typing it all out!), I have lots to write about, so maybe one of these days I shall get to it!!

This was a very random post on a good friday that doesn't feel like a good friday!
But none the less,
Have a lush easter everyone!!!


p.s....google adds are hillarious, the add they had with this post is for an orange energy rush drink!!! I love google!!

May they rest in peace...

Sometimes you lose yourself. Everything that meant something to you doesn't quite mean the same. All the vibrant colours that used to get you all giddy, suddenly seem dull and lifeless! I look at a bright pink on something in my room and now I can't help but think "hmm...its not as wow as it used to be". The little things that got me giddy, suddenly don't get me all giddy anymore. You know who you "should" be, you know what you "should" like, "should" do, but you just can't for some reason do those things anymore. It's life you're another person living in someone else's life and it's the weirdest feeling ever. But then there are these special people who remind you of who you should be. Yesterday, two very special people reminded me who I was, rather who I should be. Whether or not they knew how much of an impact that made on me is besides the point because today I woke up a bit better. I had a bit more of a spring in my step and my mouth was gravitating towards the usual smile that I wear. So here's to better days of me! The real me!

farfella....???! sp!!

I love love love this song and a friend of mine (who cannot for the life of him spell farfalla!! But a darling none the less!) sent this to me this morning! So im having a good day!


Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed
Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
Why in the world
Would anybody put chains on me?
I've paid my dues to make it
Everbody wants me to be
What they want me to be
I'm not happy when I try to fake it!
No!
Ooh,that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like Sunday morning

SATURDAY!!!!! oh saturday!!! The plan was :

- have dinner with friends
- watch the God's must be crazy with a few drinks and same friends
- go to some random party that was being held

Dinner was done, drinks were had...we kinda didn't make the movie nor the party! Reason being :

half a mug of vodka, a big scoop of ice cream and a splash of orange juice or blue sprite...yes we have blue sprite in Finland (limited edition y'all!)

This drink was made by a polish friend (note to self, poles didn't get their drinking reputation by default...there are reasons...this being one of them. Do not drink anything they make "drinkwise" again!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

I usually go from sober, to tipsy, to drunk.
This time I went from sober to DRUNK!!! I don't quite remember an in between!
It's not my fault, I didn't see her make it, it tasted so nice. Like milkshake!! hehe yeah right!!
This resulted in me telling people about how women don't need men when there are rabbits (platinum ones at that) on the market. Tres "oh my goodness did I really say that" moment once I was sober round about sunday evening!
All in all, it was a rather nice day!!!
People I think this place is the only place in the world where it's still snowing!!! What happened to spring??

Song of the day : sexy love (ne-you)...I am so loving his album!

I feel really ickie...yeah that's the word. Ever had your heart broken? Twice over? Sometimes, just going about my business and I feel tears well up in my eyes. It's that coldness that overcomes you inside, a real cold that makes you feel sick to your stomach. I know I should be stronger than this. I know it too shall pass like everything else in life. Nothing lasts forever right? Well right now it burns. It stings. It's tearing me to pieces. I don't want to pretend I'm happy anymore. I don't want to try be all smiley. I don't want to pretend that I forgot about things, that they don't bother me anymore. They still do. I just force myself to try and not think about it, but its there and when I'm alone, not laughing with or talking to someone, it all comes rushing back. How can another human being just like me, made of flesh and bone make me feel like this?

LOVES
Al love is born within love
grows larger in its belly
spreads into its space, inhabits it
desires permanence, lays claim to time
prevails, enjoys its superiority
and as soon as it is satisfied with its gains
another love is born in its belly
grows larger, spreads into its space
threatens to tear it to pieces.
But sometimes lovers stop
feeding on their adversaries’ flesh
and exchange stone likenesses
that remain unaltered within the surrounding decay
and coexist without pointless hostilities
more or less amicably, like the busts
of rival leaders in cemeteries.

....Titos Patrikios

It's about drama, and love, and relationships
And when the going gets tough,
you deal with it
And you don't ever, you never, walk away from it
You hold on, you be strong
It's about drama, and trust, and making it
If your somebody, mess up, you take it in
Don't let nobody come between you,
you just stay with it
You hold on, you be strong
Hold on

This is the chorus of a babyface song drama, love and relationships. I was listening to it as I walked to school this morning. It so easy to say. It used to be what I did. I don't know why I can't anymore. it's not setting it like I thought it would. It's a funny sort of calm. Like I don't know how I should be feeling. This is going to be the start of a long and girly ranting blog series...so the likes of acolyte, etc...beware!! Don't say I didnt warn you.

I think it's over.

It's been long. He was so much a part of me. I'm not too sure how to deal with this. But I think we've come to the end of the road. We're constantly fighting. Nothing we do seems right to the other. It's hard. I'm in this state of limbo. I don't know how to let go and I don't know how to hold on. Either way it hurts. But I am tired of the fighting. I just don't have the energy anymore - mentally or emotionally. It's way too draining. I know it's going to take an eternity to get over. I know it will hurt, it will burn, it will tear me up.